this is the outcome after being a babysitter and training my butt of
I felt like giving an update on my life as a student, having a year of nothing to do. But my year of freedom didn’t turn out quite as great as I thought.
First of all: I expected all of my interests to blossom right after I kicked high school in the nuts, but no? All that I ever wanted to do while I was in high school, like reading books, hearing and playing music… following my DJ dream as Yasminosaurus Rex didn’t seem so appealing after all. And why the fuck is that so? I have no clue, but depressing it is.
Actually I don’t feel like doing anything, nothing seems to get my groove on. Not music, not books and not even boys.
So what happened to me? Yeah, that’s a million dollar question. All I can say that my year of freedom sucks a bit ass – it sucked a lot more ass before, so fortunately things are looking up.
It all started when I finally graduated and had the whole summer to look forward too, but as I have told you guys before I’m the sexy (haha), modern and girly version for Oedipus so it didn’t turn out so neat. First I got extremely sick without even knowing. Yeah, I felt like shit but I thought “I always feel like shit so what is the problem?” and therefore I didn’t quite take it seriously. That was one big mistake, cause’ instead of treating my body as a temple I honestly took it for a fun, but dirty ride. Haha, that sounds horrible. Please do not take it literally. Long story short I was sick for 2 months and was not even allowed to exercise… hello 10 kg!
And that’s not all. I also broke it off with my boyfriend.
But now I’m exercising again and trying to enjoy my year, and instead of bitching about my lack of passion for anything, I will try to find out what the fuck I really want to do with myself and my life.
I just need a job and a new dress, and then I know I’m finally back on track!
